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Drama-Free World
Aug. 28th, 2002 03:16 pmA few very important points.
1) I owe Dave and Kellie a public apology. In a private comment to someone, I made some loose accusations that were not valid. I had no intention of causing tension between us, but said something inappropriate and patently untrue. Since those private comments were made public, I have talked with her and discovered my error. I plan on apologizing many more times in hopes they will accept it, and hope they know that I have desired a friendship for a while. I appreciate Kellie for talking to me about this and understanding that I was honestly mistaken.
2) I have no desire to point fingers at anyone for how they have suffered or how they have hurt. We all have our different paths in life, and I try to only respond negatively when the wagging finger comes pointed my direction. I *will* defend myself, because I have no fear of discussing my actions or motivations with anyone. If responding to negative alligations is in poor form, then I'm sorry... but I don't like people maligning my character in public.
3) I have had no intention of causing or being involved in any drama at DragonCon. I don't have the heart for it, and my attempts to force a resolution to certain conflicts before the beginning of the con should show quite plainly my intentions. I thought it important to clearly post the details BEFORE anyone got there, so that I wouldn't have people coming up to me all weekend asking questions about misleading information. I'm not in the mood to spend my weekend defending myself.
4) I am going through a lot more hurt right now than I have told most people. There are some very private pains that are ripping my soul to pieces right now, and I don't really feel it's going to do any good to bring them out in the open. Dawn's death has hit me hard, but to be honest, I've handled death before. This month, I've gotten a quadrupal whammy, and I'm not exactly handling it as well as I would like. I cry a lot, and am extremely emotional and a nervous wreck. I'm taking some pills because I'm worried my anus is going to clench up so tight that it folds inward. I'll be fine in the long run, I always am... but please don't judge me or my sorrow right now... it's really not appropriate.
5) I am sorry... for everything I do wrong, and everything I've wanted to do right. I hope everyone around me knows that even in my own stupid way, I try to bring a little happiness wherever I go, and often I fail. To everyone I have ever hurt or might hurt again, please talk to me... I promise that I'm not as sinister as you might think at the moment, and I'm much easier to talk to than most people think. I'm here... really... I am.
1) I owe Dave and Kellie a public apology. In a private comment to someone, I made some loose accusations that were not valid. I had no intention of causing tension between us, but said something inappropriate and patently untrue. Since those private comments were made public, I have talked with her and discovered my error. I plan on apologizing many more times in hopes they will accept it, and hope they know that I have desired a friendship for a while. I appreciate Kellie for talking to me about this and understanding that I was honestly mistaken.
2) I have no desire to point fingers at anyone for how they have suffered or how they have hurt. We all have our different paths in life, and I try to only respond negatively when the wagging finger comes pointed my direction. I *will* defend myself, because I have no fear of discussing my actions or motivations with anyone. If responding to negative alligations is in poor form, then I'm sorry... but I don't like people maligning my character in public.
3) I have had no intention of causing or being involved in any drama at DragonCon. I don't have the heart for it, and my attempts to force a resolution to certain conflicts before the beginning of the con should show quite plainly my intentions. I thought it important to clearly post the details BEFORE anyone got there, so that I wouldn't have people coming up to me all weekend asking questions about misleading information. I'm not in the mood to spend my weekend defending myself.
4) I am going through a lot more hurt right now than I have told most people. There are some very private pains that are ripping my soul to pieces right now, and I don't really feel it's going to do any good to bring them out in the open. Dawn's death has hit me hard, but to be honest, I've handled death before. This month, I've gotten a quadrupal whammy, and I'm not exactly handling it as well as I would like. I cry a lot, and am extremely emotional and a nervous wreck. I'm taking some pills because I'm worried my anus is going to clench up so tight that it folds inward. I'll be fine in the long run, I always am... but please don't judge me or my sorrow right now... it's really not appropriate.
5) I am sorry... for everything I do wrong, and everything I've wanted to do right. I hope everyone around me knows that even in my own stupid way, I try to bring a little happiness wherever I go, and often I fail. To everyone I have ever hurt or might hurt again, please talk to me... I promise that I'm not as sinister as you might think at the moment, and I'm much easier to talk to than most people think. I'm here... really... I am.
