Weird Nights...

[weswilson]

Found out a guy I see regularly hung himself in his house today...

I'm not quite sure why it's affecting me... perhaps I'm just tired of seeing people be sad... perhaps I just don't understand how people can hurt the people closest to them with irresponsible behavior... perhaps I'm just tired of death and dispair...

I thought a lot about the people I love tonight... and how far I'd got to keep them from hurting. Some time this week, I'm going to write The Nice Guy Manifesto to dispell some misconceptions about what it takes to "be there" for people...

Life really isn't as hard as it seems, sometimes.

Comments

[perpetualmotion.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel, sometimes I just wish I could be superhuman and could keep all my close ones safe from harm... :\ Some people say I care too much. Is there anything as caring too much about the well being of your friends, I don't know, but I don't feel sorry about it...

[weswilson]

I just wish I had enough power to actually show people the beauty I see in them... there are people who just won't believe that they could actually be worthy of love.

[devilturnip.livejournal.com]

Hmm... need a few signitures for that manifesto?

[weswilson]

Yes, but keep in mind it's not going to be the happy and harmless document its title might suggest.

[devilturnip.livejournal.com]

Oh, I know.

[latitude11.livejournal.com]

Oh dear.. how shocking. :/

::hugs::

[weswilson]

thanks... I can use some of those.

[daisydaze.livejournal.com]

I totally relate to what you are saying here. I have been watching the news and cnn a lot lately and it really puts life in perspective when you consider the prospect that we could be standing in the streets watching everyone die because of war. I count my blessings daily and am making a conscience effort to show the ones I love just how much they mean to me. :)

[weswilson]

The news is defnately not my friend right now. Things are making me grumpier by the day. I'm leading myself lately with a little bit of denial about the world as a whole.... it's better for me right now.

[daisydaze.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean. I feel a bit like burying my head in the sand and clicking my ruby red slippers together.

[robont.livejournal.com]

Life really isn't as hard as it seems, sometimes.

And even if it gets hard it's still life, easy would be boring. But then again I don't get why people would want to check out early..... I mean I get it, but I can't understand how people could even consider it as a viable option, it confuses me.....

[weswilson]

Agreed... I understand the hurt... I can even feel the pain... but I can't help but believe deep in my core than there are wonderful moments I wouldn't want to miss.

[kittymel.livejournal.com]

It is disturbing when someone you know chooses to end their life. I remember the multitude of emotions I felt when i found out that one of my former college roommates had done the same thing.

[weswilson]

I didn't know him that well, so it's only a superficial hit. He did offer to help me with my haunt... he did make it a point to ALWAYS say hi to me when he saw me. I know I didn't give him as much attention as he gave me, and I can only hope that he found what he was looking for.

[ditz-35801.livejournal.com]

Wes, you have always given the attention people needed. I know he appreciated you just saying hi back to him. I wish I could have know what he was looking for and helped him find it here instead of using the option he took.

[orangecone.livejournal.com]

"I'm not quite sure why it's affecting me... "

Sure you do. He was another human being that decided that life was apparently too difficult for them. You're a human being and you don't want to see that despair in another. I'm glad you're around.

[weswilson]

thanks man... I guess I needed it spelled out for me.

[orangecone.livejournal.com]

That doesn't even begin to cover it.

[neffer.livejournal.com]

I don't understand what would drive a person to that extreme. May it is because i have never reach that level of low. Maybe it isn't that at all it could be just a way out of the crazy for a simple word world. but i do total understand what you are saying. I guess thing just get to rough